SORROWFUL!!!

hmmm...assalamualaikum....hmmm...haishhhh!!!it's happened again...i cried alone in midnight...so sad..whish is i can't tell.how horrible it is...how complicated it is...hmmm...only ALLAH knows best about how was ma feeling at that time....this thing happened.again .because..(haissh...miserable)...ma feeling at that time was ungodly....YA ALLAH BLESS ME.(PRAY)...PLEASE GUIDE ME TO CHOOSE WHICH U I HAVE TO CHOOSE...ONLY U KNOW WHAT BEST FOR ME..AMIN...Haishh...it hard to make a decision...confusing....(have a headache already)....terrible...until right now..i didn't get the answer yet!!!arghhhh...wat happened to me...i cannot think rationally..(maybe insane already)dusshh(knocked ma head)owhhh...i can see 10 birds maked a chirp sound n flied around ma head...omo...ottoeke!!!and ma feeling getting more worst...when i woke up in de morning...ma mom asked me..."ika!have u decide already..which want U you wanna go!!!)...wat!!!!!!wait a minute....(argghhh feel like i want to faint at that time)....hmmmm...the point is until right now i didn't get the answer...and yet...ma throat...awww hurts n also ma eyes swollen..oh no!!!bacame panda already...no!!!ANDWAE!!!ugly already...this happened bcoz side effect from crying to much...now!!! all i need to do is calm down think carefully..be patient...MAY ALLAH BE WITH ME!!!!AND THOSE who knows me best than i am...PLEASE!!!JEBAL!!HELP ME...I NEED UR HELP...REALLY..I'M NOT KIDDING...MEOW...luv u...